Nikki ♥

R.I.P DAD ; 02.24.57-01.19.05　

What can i say about my father ? well he was the best father ever . i love him soo much & i wish he was still around soo he could see me grow up . lifes soo hard without you & i wish i would have expressed all the love i feel for you when you were around . maybe i was just to young & i wasnt mature enough to actually tell you how much i love you . i guess i’ve changed because i dont let people pass me by without letting them know how important they are to me in life . most of my life my brother has been my father figure , but i wish he didnt have to take that responsibility at a young age . he’s been everything for me & i appreciate it . i promised you i wouldnt argue with him as much as we did & now we’re the bestest of friends , thanks to you . mommy takes really good care of me & i thank her for everything she’s done . you may not have been around much , but you still changed my life . i remember when you told me you couldnt wait to walk me down the isle to my future husband , & i was like 10 years old , lmao . what i’d give for that to become reality someday . lifes unexplainable & it doesnt leave much answers , only memories of what used to be . one day we’ll catch up though . i love you & theres not a day when i dont think about you ; i love you uncondtionally & i know your my angel … Rest in Peace .

- i love you & RIP Papi aka “Pita”

I dont want your pity . Its because of you that I feel the way I do . I dont have much to give , but Ive given you everything . & you took it for granted & threw it all away . I know you love me , but its not enough . Actions speak louder than words & so far , your actions proved the opposite of the words youve spoken . The good times with you are my happiness & the bad times with you are my misery . Many mistakes have been made , but I learned not to dwell on the past any longer . The present & future is whats important & what counts , but your pretty much fucking up no matter what time frame we’re in . Your a big boy & know right from wrong , so why do you always aim towards the wrong ? Ive foughten so much & I honestly thought that I would be in a different position than I am today after all this time . If your gonna change , then do it . If your not gonna change , let me go . Someone in this world deserves to make me happy for the rest of my life , it could be you , but the balls in your court my dude . Dont bother realizing what you have , when its already gone .